It's been forever! Sorry about that, just a lot of shit to get through.
There was the acute renal failure (kidneys) thanks to me being devastated over loosing somebody - that was fun, 4 months of hospital followed by two months in the eating disorder clinic - my weight is stable (for now anyway) and my kidneys are working at about 80% which is as high as they can get them but I only do blood tests every week now.
Went to the country after hospital, I just needed to get away from all the doctors and expecting eyes of people that watched me get sick and where somewhat disappointed that I didn't get out of hospital fatter. It was nice, mum and I bouncing between Hamilton and warrni, I got a chance to start my 'maintenance' meal-plan around people I love and that didn't judge on the days I threw a fit and wouldn't eat.
It's funny I actually came out of hospital a health freak, total vegetarian soy junkie. I actually do boxing and spend two hours a day working out (not to burn fat but like in hospital, a lot of muscle building core strengthening work to keep my bones healthy and build back up my muscle) soon (if I keep myself well) I'll be able to take up Brett and Mel on the jujitsu offer. That's the funny thing about getting assaulted it motivates you to want to know how to protect yourself and others if ever the situation comes up again (let's hope it never does)
We got home yesterday in preparation for today's events, without going into detail it sucked and there was crying and then an hour and a half of yoga/cardio and I managed one meal (I think mum and I both expected this to tip me off the edge again food wise) but I decided to channel my hurt/despair/anger into more productive things.
I'll update again about how shit the EDclinic was and how amazing most of the girls are. But it's getting late and my hyper post workout buzz is wearing off and I should get to settling down for the night.
Oh btw- I have a new phone (same number 0438 137 202) but have lost all my contacts! So if you could msg me your numbers I would love that (cath especially you as I have not been able to get onto you sorry!)
Love to you all xo
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